Her eating disorder had taken over her life. She felt so isolated from everyone, behind a curtain of the real her.
Her life had faded from a bright yellow to a blue then finally to a purple. Each color signifying a different stage in her life. She wore braceletes to represent the colors she felt represented her life.
Yellow for the times that she had been happy, up until the accident. Though, she had been bulemic once before, she had gotten over it pretty quickly. She had lived a rich childhood. She had gotten anything she wanted, went anywhere and everywhere. Spoiled described her. Precisely why she engraved it insignificantly in her arm.
The blue "airforce" bracelet reminds her of her deceased boyfriend, Adam. The blye also represents the sadness she felt, the emenseness of the sadness like the blue ocean.
Finally the purple on that represented the even darker time she was facing now. She felt as if she were fake, saving the lives of other people, yet killing herself. Even though she could realize that this process had to stop, she couldnt. It was all she could control herself.
SHe never took the bracelets off. Partially because they were representative and a conversation starter when she was in a new place or with a new patient. Partially because they hid the scars of the words and gashes engraved in her wrists.
She would be okay, though. She would. She had to be.
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